I wasn’t always a reader. In kindergarten I was diagnosed dyslexic and although it was 40 years ago, I remember vividly the slow and tedious daily one-on-one instruction I received at Evans Elementary. I dreaded the inevitable charge to read my assigned paragraph aloud and hearing my classmates giggle as I struggled with the easiest of words. It took about four years of special classes for my brain to automatically switch the letters on the page to their correct order and even today, if I attempt to read late into the night, when real fatigue sets in, the words on a page begin to slip into a jumbled mess. In college, pulling an all-nighter was useless. It was better for me to go to bed, get a good night’s sleep and get up refreshed and ready to hit the books at 5am.
Something happened in 5th grade. I was a new student at St. Louis and somehow as I struggled to fit in and find my way, I noticed that reading didn’t seem as laborious. It was like a light switch had been hit and all of a sudden, everything on the page made sense. I began to read furiously, I couldn’t stop. When I finished one book, I had to have another waiting in the wings and if I didn’t have a book to put my hands on, I’d read whatever was in front of me, including the milk carton as I ate my cereal in the morning. I see some of these same habits developing in Livy Girl. She reads while eating breakfast and well beyond her 9pm bedtime. She loves to receive Borders or Barnes & Noble gift cards. She even memorizes upcoming release dates for new titles by her favorite authors.
My favorite author when I was my daughter’s age was Judy Blume. I inhaled everything she wrote. I especially loved Deenie, Are You Their God? It’s Me, Margaret and a little later, I was one of the first girls in Sister Vincentine’s to read Blume’s Forever. I can’t remember if I had my own copy of the paperback or if I simply inherited the book that was being passed around among the other readers in my class. I do remember the sections colored by a yellow highlighter, which detailed the scandalous heavy petting and French kissing.
I was never one of those girls who dreamed about my wedding or even getting married, but I do remember thinking that if ever I had a daughter, I’d introduce her to Judy Blume.
I know a lot of people who travel down memory lane when they hear the first few notes of a certain song, but for me, my personal history is marked by what I was reading at the time. I still have the peanut butter stained copy of The Color Purple my mother included in a care package she sent to me my freshman year at Hampton. Also in the box was a jar of Skippy peanut butter that cracked in transit and the oil from the jar seeped into the first 100 pages of the book. The works of Toni Morrison consumed my junior and senior years of college and I was reading Coming Through Slaughter by Michael Ondaatje when I met my husband in France.
A few years ago, two of my dearest girlfriends moved beyond a day’s travel and I suddenly found myself feeling rudderless and an invitation to join a book club introduced me to a wonderful group of women who have become good friends.
I’m always recommending books to people I know. I strike-up conversations with strangers when I notice they’re reading something I’m familiar with and I can talk about my favorite books/authors for hours on end.
They’re few things that are a constant in life, but since I was ten, reading has been a constant friend, provided comfort and sometimes even an escape.